A year today.
I dont really feel like I’ve achieved alot in this past year?
I guess my biggest achievement would be that I’ve learn’t to live with the earthquakes.?
.....I baked a cake today.
Not actually sure why??
I’m sitting outside in the sun having a glass of wine.
I’m not entirely sure whether im celebrating or comiserating?
I mean what is there to celebrate?
Buildings are down, the cathedral is stuffed, peoples houses are ‘munted’, there is no town, I have no job, and the list goes on….....................and on.
But then hey….....I’m alive arne’t I?????
And unfortunatley many aren’t.
181 people to be exact.
It almost feels wrong to celebrate???
So i guess im comiserating???
If it weren’t for the earthquakes I wouldn’t know half the neighbours i do now.
Some of which are very good friends of mine now.
So am i celebrating now??
I wouldn’t have learnt the things I have learnt about myself that i previously did not know.
I wouldn’t have as much respect for the police,armies (all the armies farmy student etc)
civil defence, sallies, first aid workers, all the people that helped, that i do now.
But then if it weren’t for the earthquakes, I wouldn’t have the horrible visions that are inside my head that i do.
I wouldn’t be grieving lost loved ones.
My home wouldn’t be wrecked.
I would be at work right now….......................
So i still haven’t decided what I’m having this wine for??
I guess im just having a wine.
In the sun.
Just having a wine in the sun.
By Michelle Paterson